better behave, you dealin with some rich negro's.

im at work (BLENDZ CUTS & COLOR) today. Often times i find myself at work thinking a lot more than i need to be. not that my thoughts distract me from my work, but boy when i have a minute to think to myself i really go for it. Lately and obvious to the eye, i've been worried. i feel like right now im in limbo and until i get things together, ill probably be somewhere in this world for a while.

so low key, i've felt a little heart broken lately, but really and truly. i'm not (no offense to you mister) i just got my feelings hurt. something told me months ago that it'd happen, i thought i'd be able to bounce back when the time came; im still working on it, smch (smacking of teeth). either way, i'm okay. it was a learning experience as it always is. Its funny though ya know, cause you spend a lifetime looking for the "right" person but i've been wondering lately, is there just ONE right person for every person. I've come to the conclusion that as far as my intelligent allows me to believe, there can definitely be more than one person for each, it's all dependent upon whether we as a people are willing to let another individual in our lives the way we have previous lovers. I believe that there's something special about the most recent "relationship" i had, i wont go into deets about what was special about it, but i must say that WE SHALL MEET AGAIN. sometimes you meet persons that can be very beneficial to your life for different times in your life, and sometimes you just meet someone too soon. much too soon. I am so grateful to be able to say i've done and faced so many of the situations that i have, my life wouldnt be the same without them; i wouldn't be the same.

i've been dealing with a lot of different kinds of situations since this year has begun, i've felt abandoned by someone that i thought cared more than anyone i knew at the time, i've been consumed, mentally, and i've been used as a friend. now, though all of this has been the case for me for a few weeks/months for me, i've been dealing just fine. I know im stronger than i lead myself to believe sometimes, and i know that i know a lot better than some of the wack decisions i make sometimes too. but you know that quote that every youngin' uses "old enough to know better but young enough to not give a fuck", well, i live by this a little more often than i should....

this is just what i've been thinkin...